So this past week has been quite a interesting one to say the least. First I found a cheap motorcycle that I can fix up and ride around, then I got a phone call that my pops might have cancer and then Thursday I`m told I am the manager of all EMS and got a raise. Please some one tell me what I should be feeling. With all  that said most of my day is gonna be modding my linux programs. I really wanna get tethering to work on my lap top so I can bring it to work. Also I have a feeling I`m not gonna get that bike..

I haven't posted in a few days, mostly due to working too much and what not. I turned 21 this week and went out last night and got my tattoo and went out shooting pool. I got to make a confession I do like my cousins friend but shes an idiot, and I been good at making sure she knows that I ain't playing games. My cuz is kinda dating this dude and I must say he seems like a geniune dude but these days people can lie all day. But if not I am happy for her, Today's is going to be mostly a productive day, I sewed my blanket closed and stuffed it with some more stuffing, trying to install Fedora on my new Laptop and maybe get my headlights fixed, I think its just the ground line being broken or maybe the light.

Ok so it might have taken longer then I or anyone thought but I need to change myself. i don't want to do anything super crazy, I just wanna lose 80 pounds two pants sizes and three shirt sizes, also i wanna get rid of my acne that has plagued me for ever. So once my pay check clears the bank and I get my income tax I'm really gonna get started but this is the statistics so far, I started at 260 pounds pant 44 shit XXXL, Currently I'm about 240 pounds 42 pants XXL shirt. Though its still a little tight it's getting better.

So today at work I should have known it was gonna be a bad days, when I was running late. But maybe a half hour after getting to work I was talk I got my first write up,due to some errors on the claims I worked. I'm really upset because I am actually trying hard because I like this job a lot. But I wonder if I am just missing things or if I'm that stupid, cause the work isn't that hard. But I guess I should just count my blessings because if they didn't thing I got this they would have let Me go right? Maybe this is the source of my depression, knowing that i might not get this job and get fired cause then i don't know what I'd do. Ugh well i guess ill ride out this day and try to figure out what I'm doing like what I'm doing for dinner. its funny they call people who don't eat anemic, but what you call someone who can eat? I say poor maybe their is some terminology that i can use and get some government funding, that seems that is the thing these day.

Another thing that's wrong with me these days is friends, not so much friends but the lack of. Not that I am Mister popular but I had some friends that I could chill with when ever I want. What made me think of this was my cuz hanging with her friends and how different  they were to my friends and it occurred to me, maybe I won't make any friends down here. I mean they way they act, they are more immature then people from new York. Which is funny cause people say I'm immature well I guess these kids must be really immature. Also the girls down here are kinda old school I guess? They all have problems or kids, so I'm probably gonna be lonely is all aspects. I guess this is karma, but my question is when does karma stop and howmuch good does it take to make good karma?  Well I never thought I would write this stuff down but I do feel somewhat better. Well I guess the best thing that has happened these days is my motorcycle adventure might be closer then I thought.

Real recognizes real right? wrong! people wouldn't know what real was if you slapped them with a ten pound bag of it. Real use to be what you can see touch taste and smell, now it's about who can lie the best and get other people to lie for them. I guess the government has a lot to do with this, I mean they say we learn our best and worst from our parent and they learn it from theirs blah blah but who in the end is the teacher? I believe it has a lot to do with the government and I ain't one those "the government controls us" blah blah, but I just wanna make a point. When I was a sophomore in high school I dress "abnormal", band tee-shirt, chains, dragons what ever. Then all of a sudden that was the "hip" thing to do cause people like Lil Wayne was wearing it. I mean where do people stop copying are they all just water, and reflect what others do?

This post is going to be realistically long, because this is something that I know for fact and in my personal life. More recently I have been trying to eat healthier, not as a "New Years" resolution but just to lost some weight and get back into a shape other then a circle. But I have come to the conclusion that I'm probably going to be a lonely man when i grown even older, or gonna have a wife that I really don't like or love. I say that especially living in Texas, Yesterday at my Cuz Super Bowel party, BTW Green Bay kicked ass but it was a good game, some of her guy friends came over and I`m just saying that these dude make me hate the guys in Texas. I`m noticing more and more that they aren't much different from one another. They all "herd" towards girls, maybe its my assholeness or my lack of wanting to be a good guy but I mean my Cuz girls had these dudes around their fingers. And I know most if not all are not getting the choochie. Please someone in cyber space help me out.

I am losing all faith in humanity.

I think people that don't spell half the sentence correctly online are pathetic. I'm not saying that I am perfect but there's spell check these days come on

Well yesterday was a total bust, didn't get my work done. Well going in hard this morning so I can relax, but I still can`t believe the entire state of Texas is still shut down,

Angie thank you for the distraction.

Well not sure if this is the right thing to do but got five days worth of work, going to try to get this company caught up. I must admit I really like this job, I mean it's called work but minus this one girl, it's a lot of fun. Though honestly I never liked the idea of bringing work home, mostly cause work should be at work and home should be home. But this lady I work for is really nice. I hope i bring a contribution to this company that will make it prosper, Well Yo Ho off to work I go.

Although I`m not really new to the whole blogging thing, I guess it`s just time to start again and see what comes about. Mostly this is gonna be random spurts of thoughts that I might have. Like how the entire state of Texas, well maybe just Huston, has shut down for the day because of the threat of snow. Really? The threat of know? I mean don`t get me wrong if I saw a tornado I`d be out but I mean it`s only three inches of snow. Well the good things is that they let us out early. Though its might be a bad thing if they didn't pay us, Well I'll just look to the future, like if the schools are closed I get to work at home. :)