So today at work I should have known it was gonna be a bad days, when I was running late. But maybe a half hour after getting to work I was talk I got my first write up,due to some errors on the claims I worked. I'm really upset because I am actually trying hard because I like this job a lot. But I wonder if I am just missing things or if I'm that stupid, cause the work isn't that hard. But I guess I should just count my blessings because if they didn't thing I got this they would have let Me go right? Maybe this is the source of my depression, knowing that i might not get this job and get fired cause then i don't know what I'd do. Ugh well i guess ill ride out this day and try to figure out what I'm doing like what I'm doing for dinner. its funny they call people who don't eat anemic, but what you call someone who can eat? I say poor maybe their is some terminology that i can use and get some government funding, that seems that is the thing these day.

Another thing that's wrong with me these days is friends, not so much friends but the lack of. Not that I am Mister popular but I had some friends that I could chill with when ever I want. What made me think of this was my cuz hanging with her friends and how different  they were to my friends and it occurred to me, maybe I won't make any friends down here. I mean they way they act, they are more immature then people from new York. Which is funny cause people say I'm immature well I guess these kids must be really immature. Also the girls down here are kinda old school I guess? They all have problems or kids, so I'm probably gonna be lonely is all aspects. I guess this is karma, but my question is when does karma stop and howmuch good does it take to make good karma?  Well I never thought I would write this stuff down but I do feel somewhat better. Well I guess the best thing that has happened these days is my motorcycle adventure might be closer then I thought.