Life

So as you may already know me and Jenisse have really started a real relationship in the long distnat type. most people accually do not approve of long distant because of the things you miss because you aren't able to be with each other. I do belive being unable to kiss or hug you signficant other does put a diffrent spin on your relationship. Well today I was watching "True Life: I am relocating for love" and really almost started taking notes. But I did notice one thing, that me and Jenisse are deffinitly on a better track then what these kids were. I mean I do belive that seeing someone and talking to them is diffrent. This is why, on the phone or even on Skype or OovoO you can controll what the other person sees. Unlike these people in the show me and Jenisse have seen the best and worst in each other.

     I do believe this helps a couple really trend on the healthier side of a relationship so I do think that me or her moving to the other state wouldn't be so bad. Personally I would love for her to come up here but I am really trying to help weigh all the options for both of us though My main thing that is really hard to cope with is the heat and the way the jobs work down there. My cuz was telling me that down there they are a "right to work" state. He explained that means that they think if you want to work y ou will work as we say, example is if you work for $18/hr and they cut your pay you just bite the bullet or quit. This is kinda smart as far as a company cause you can get workers to work cheap but personally unless necessary I wouldn't do it, it's just morally wrong. But I know she is conformable there so it's kinda hard to keep that up as well. But up here there is issues to besides the winter, which is a problem it self, she might not be able to get the schooling she would like the way she wants.  So I am not sure what is best for us, but I know we are best for each other.

Life Love

So this seems to be my  first really good post in a while I guess. Jenisse finally broke up with her boyfriend Danny, and me and her are doing well. She is everything I want in a woman and more but there is a few things I think about in the negativie. Mostly the whole looks things, because Jenssie is good looking and I am well, not so much, she gets kinda down on her self that she can't get a good looking guy. I kinda get mad at myself for not being as good looking as some of the guys she wants to be with.

Rock and a Hard place

Again I am writing in this blog to help relive myself of pain that I have gotten over the last couple of hours. I really hope that someone reads this and can help me out. So yesterday till today went from great to bad in a couple of hours. During the day Jenisse and I have really started to get close we cuddled and just made a lot of leeway. But that's the good news, the bad is her ex-boyfriend came over, Lucas, one of the biggest a-hole ex`s that she still has as friends. First impressions is this guy wants to have sex with Jenisse. Again knowing how much  I care and respect Jenisse I grinned and bared his presence and eventually left to take a shower and layed down because I felt sick to my stomach holding back. After about an hours or so I went to see how everything was to find that Lucas and Jenisse was no wear to be found, I felt so light headed for no reason that I stepped out side, I heard a ruckus inside her mother room and realized that both of them were in the shower. Honestly both of them in the shower didn't both me, what bothered me is that I am WAY better for her then Lucas and Danny ( her current boyfriend) and yet Lucas was the one in the shower with her. So I had enough, obviously I wasn't as high on the totem-pole as I thought and started t threw I to pack my stuff. Half way threw I decided that I would wait till the morning to see what she had to say, on the way in Jenisse came outside with nothing but a towel to talk to me. Come to find out that she wanted Lucas to be that "gay friend" every woman wants and he just wanted to have sex with her. And Lucas wasn't gonna take no for an answer and forced himself on her, she begged that i didn't go in and kill the kid that she would handle it but in my heart a piece broke off. I just hope that she will open up more cause again I spent most of my night watching her sleep cause she was crying.