Relationship

This is the most commonly discussed subject, so here is my problem. For the last couple of days I have basicly lived at my friend Jenisse house, which means almost ever waking moment is shared by each other. So what does that truely mean? As I stated in my last posts I have some feelings for this girl prior to me coming over here. Mostly because she is cute and not stuck up, but I do belive that you can tell what or how a person is going to be after meeting them. Cause to be honest I met her threw Facebook and talked, texted and skyped a few times but no matter how many days you talk to someone if you don't see them I belive that you don't know them truely. Here is my example, when you are upset or pissed off and you don't have to see someone when they call or text you can just ignore it or say your busy. But with that being said when you meet somoene they also can hide things from you, but what about when you live in their house? I have seen Jenisse from bad to worse and good to great and let me just say in a fucked up way I envy Whitney and her current boyfriend, which for me is way out of charater. The only thing that really bothers me is that she said her boyfriend treats her like crap. Again the nice guy finished last? Any way so she told me he hits her and ignores her and what not, so that really makes me think that if I looked better not only could I have a girl like Jenisse but wouldn't have to try hard. The only thing that really bothers me about Jenisse is that she says that if she was single she would date me, but she is never single. Again I know she likes some other dude from NY and I know that he is probally better lookiung then me or better equpit to be with Jenisse but I guess even mad men can drream right. I have to start writing my feelings down in here so that I don't say it out loud like I did the other day. Cause she is sweet and trys to say I am a stronger man then some of the other dudes she talks to cause I can talk bout how i feel, but I feel like a pansy when I talk to her about it. Espically when I basicly "confess my love" to her on the beach. But thank god I think she just ignoerd the fat ugly dude that said it. Also my cuz fiance doesn't help either, I was talking to her, mostly cause she was curious about my feeling towards Jennise, about how everything is happening between me and Jenises.And insteard of trying to help me with it she tells me that I should just straight up kiss the girl and see what happens, because obivoualy she has something for me to be at her house. My whole thing about it is I don't wanna lose her friendship nor do I wanna make thing awkward. I must say anyone who is pathetic enough to read this is going to think I am the biggest puss in the world. And I will admit that I do sound like a bitching woman, but I don't know whats wrong with me. Maybe I got bite by the love bug and I'm allergic.